i have moved..

was supposed to go on a massive shoppin spree at town today... had in mind some stuff to get... like another denim skirt... oh woe is me... i outgrew the previous skirt... haha... and maybe a pair of pumps...
but anyway... i overslept as usual... got up at twelve... mopped my house... went for a swim... and it was nearly five... then i dressed up for town... messaged darren for dinner... things went wrong in between and i ended up dressin down for sakae dinner with my mom at westmall...
i met wei wen at westmall though... its like i got a message from him askin if i wore a striped shirt... which i did... my wheres wally shirt from mango... heh... pang said its nice... *grin* and suddenly he was right beside me and i was gapin in wonder at how he transformed... i haven't seen him for a good seven years... and i'm astounded that he manages to recognize me despite all that time... i mean i went through a massive transformation from my primary school days... i could even scan my student pass... the one that never fails to crack quan up... just to prove that i got prettier... HAHA... anyway he looked so much better than i remembered and much better with his words too... haha.. i'm bloggin like the spirit of shiang min just possessed me... HAHA...
okay... here's the part that excites me... i bought a blazer and a pair of office pants at less than sixty bucks... now i'm talkin like the spirit of quan possessed me... HAHA... so although i didn't get to shop at town today... i got myself the stuff i needed for work at a super reasonable price... yayy...
i forgot to blog about the book called backroads by tawni o dell... its one of the most amazing reads i've ever had... and now i'm about to finish another book called chocolat... its supremely good too... so i'm recommendin it on my blog haha... it's going to be nel's birthday soon... so i'm off to write his card :D

walk away- ben harper

Oh no
Here comes that sun again
That means another day
Without you my friend
And it hurts me
To look into the mirror at myself
And it hurts even more
To have to be with somebody else

And it's so hard to do
And so easy to say
But sometimes
Sometimes you just have to walk away
Walk away

With so many people to love in my life
Why do I worry about one?
But you put the happy in my ness
You put the good times into my fun

And it's so hard to do
And so easy to say
But sometimes
Sometimes you just have to walk away
Walk away
And head for the door

We've tried the goodbye
So many days
We walk in the same direction
So that we could never stray

They say if you love somebody
Than you have got to set them free
But I would rather be locked to you
Than live in this pain and misery

They say time will
Make all this go away
But it's time that has taken my tomorrows
And turned them into yesterdays
And once again that rising sun
Is droppin' on down
And once again you my friend
Are nowhere to be found

And it's so hard to do
And so easy to say
But sometimes
Sometimes you just have to walk away
Walk away
And head for the door

You just walk away
Walk away
Walk away
Just walk a...
Walk on
Turn and head for the door
Just walk away

met up with the girls and the boys --> nelly, jerry, marcus.. had damn awesome dinner at the japanese restaurant next to the top shop in wisma.. kickass chawanmushi.. i found a little gingko nut at the bottom of the bowl and was extremely delighted..
headed to the balcony after that for drinks and more chat.. haha.. the mist thing was directly above my head.. haha its farkin interestin and farkin annoyin too.. haha.. i really can't remember the last time i laughed that hard.. HAHA.. its farkin hilarious.. now we all know a naughty secret of *ahem ahem*
after that we went for more food at cartel.. tell me i ain't leadin THE life.. haha.. will put the photos up as soon as i get my hands on them.. oh.. and xiaowei drove us home on her spankin new honda jazz.. well at least it smells damn new..
and damn.. i just caught my first episode of so you think you can dance.. and i'm farkin smitten by artem.. he's how farkin hot.. and his accent is amazingly sexy.. i was totally bowled over.. totally totally.. and they had to kick him out.. fark it..

i don't know where to start thankin everyone for sendin their good wishes on my birthday.. i'm truly blessed.. it means so much to me knowin i'm not just a faded memory in many people's lives despite all these time that have passed.. i'm just really thankful for alot of people and things in my life..

this year was different for me cause its been awhile since i celebrated birthdays with my families.. (mine+nels) i feel like i've grown to appreciate my family more than i ever remembered.. and i think its a symptom of ageing.. haha.. its like what nel's mom shared with me about the dogcatdog poem over dinner.. i'm lazy to elaborate.. but i mentioned nelvin never went through the cat phase.. haha.. nel's mom bought me some lovely foot spa stuff.. so no more achin soles for me.. and nel's grandma bought me some accessories.. haha.. i'm blessed la.. haha..

also.. i'd like to thank the birdie clan.. haha.. they are the stars in my life.. haha.. i'm meetin them on the 27th.. haha.. my one week long birthday celebration.. haha.. ben for always rememberin where ever he is.. and nellybellyjelly for being my HERO and for PODDIE and the best birthday song i've had!!!

there are a few stuff i've wanted to blog about some time ago.. but never found the time to.. i attended church a few days back.. and one thing that never fails to amaze me is how closely the word coincides with the issues on my mind.. of course the issue on my mind then i needn't mention.. it was all over my blog until i decided to be politically correct again.. its easy for people.. observers or people involved alike.. to say its all over.. or to say they don't give a flyin fuck.. sure.. it wasn't your life that was messed up for awhile.. it wasn't you feelin disoriented because for a moment you couldn't tell friend from notsofriendly.. and it wasn't you who felt like you've seen some people more clearly after all the dust has settled..

yea but i digressed.. the pastor was drawin analogy to adam and eve and the tree of knowledge of good and evil.. ohman.. i'm good at this.. haha.. and he said.. evil reigns when good men keep quiet.. i believe its somethin martin luther king said years before.. but it made so much sense.. momentarily i found myself mentally countin all the times i failed to intercede on anyone's behalf.. and of course.. what stopped me from bein engulfed in a sea of grievance was pastor prince's advice to avoid people that deplete you mentally.. and then i kept wonderin why i kept my thoughts runnin with people who couldn't care a penny for my feelings.. haha.. and so i felt so bloody enlightened and free of burden after the session.. amazin aint it.. what two hours of talk does to your head..

and i'm glad the week is goin over.. i'm quite emotionally spent..
i absorb negative feelins quite easily.. like i feel depressed when the people around me are depressed.. its somethin i gotta rid myself of before i fuck up my life..
this week was a hell ride for me.. work annoyed me particularly.. i'm fuckin claustrophobic.. and it doesn't help when people chatter..

somehow i only heard two things from talkin to chetty.. "maybe she's lying" and "mutual friend" my ears were ringing so badly cause i was so mad..
i didn't even hear what he thinks i could have been lying about.. anyhow.. it is the dirtiest way to damn or vindicate another.. and he texted to apologize after that.. it just made my hair stand..
and then i heard "mutual friend".. i haven't much to say to that except that from the time everythin came to light.. i've always believed that no malice was involved in whatever she said.. yea.. although i think its highly ironic for her to be mad at me.. she probably has her own ideas..
and thanks chetty.. haha i said last night i was so busy kaopehin i forgot to thank you.. yea.. you prob think nth of it.. but it means alot to me that while others are plainly gossipin and castin aspersions on my character.. you were the one that gave me a chance at least to deny it.. not that your my hero of course.. HAHAHAHA..
and thanks nellybellyjelly.. when i first got wind of it.. tejay told me to ignore all the untruths but make sure you believe me.. turned out i didn't need to explain at all.. you dismissed it as stupidtalk instead.. *does the bear dance*
and thanks danchi.. you know for talkin to me that night..
and to serena.. your so silly.. i don't even know how you spiralled into this shite..
just to prove my sense of humour is still intact.. thanks xiujuan i love this shirt la..

its been ages since i woke before nine.. haha.. i hope there's good tv at this hour.. anyway heh heh here's my birthday wishlist..
1)reese peanut butter cup (i think..)
2)fish and co. peppermints
3)a black set of bikinis
4)an assortment of lingerie (colourful ones)
5)a pretty bag (big enuf to dump all my school stuff next sem)
6)lots of accessories
haha.. why am i shamelessly askin for my presents here.. *ahem* nelvin *ahem* progress *ahem* package.. HAHAHAHA.. okay i'm off to watch animal planet!