i love my secondary school friends. i don't know how to go about sayin it, but who else loves me more but them and vice versa of course?

i've been through a rough patch this month, and it made me see so much. i thought i was alone in this war with myself, and it nearly reduced me to a mess of tears after hearing quan speak, and finally understanding that she knows me. it is of an incredible poignancy. and i got seized by a similar rush of gratitude again when shiang said "i knew this day would come" when i told her things between nel and i are turning well. i don't know where else can i find such quiet and enduring support. i don't know where else can i find such a genuine smile as that from danchi when she says "i feel so happy for you" i have wonderful friends like ven and xw schoolin with me. i'm so lucky i feel like i don't deserve it. think about it, there are so many people in the pretext of being your friend brings you down, makes you question yourself. i don't know why these people even bother really. not friendship day today. but thanks guys really. so much!