i'm alone in the study now, well not exactly alone, alone still nevertheless. the drifting laughters gets to me. like a constant prick which reminds me of how miserable i feel now. i can't tell why i feel miserable, only that i feel everything single aspects of my failure, insecurities and fears descending upon me, in one big blow. i feel like sleeping in, let the storm blow over, wake.
i don't know how it happened, it happened anyway. i merely wanted to get it off my chest. now it is beyond repair. so fly.