i'm quite depressed, i wished someone had the time to listen to me. i'm filled with anger towards him, wished he knew i'm not proof against men's attentions, wished he stop having such unfalterin confidence that i won't stray, wished he stop takin for granted my affections can't change, wished he could be more sensitive, wished he did somethin to turn things around, wished he would listen to me, wished he knew he's not nearly as bad as he made him out to be. i'm not doin this to retaliate, to make a fuss, to throw tantrums, no i'm not, he's just coming dangerously close.

and i wished he could be less sensitive, wished he would stop making so much sense, wished he didn't stay up just to make sure i wont be alone, wished he didn't give me such a sense of security, wished i never took that step to know him better.