so here am i, once again boring holes into my notes, on a happy hari raya night. no one is at home, just me, my pillow and my blog. not being bitter about it tonight though, feel like i needed some space and time alone to myself. lookin out of the window does things to you, you know, especially at night. its like the far away lights, watchin people, cars and life move by. kinda surreal, like you are one person, but not alone.
it kinda reminded me of the time, just quan and i sat at the breakwaters watching the sea, not talkin much, just deep in our own thoughts, yet feeling the camaraderie of our friendship. its times like this you appreciate bigger things, and you feel being all holed up in your petty problems is silly, when there is so much in life to marvel at. gawd, i'm really going on and on right.
he's meeting yvonne tonight, and he launched into a discourse, "i left my boots at camp, and i have to go take it back, and it is near her place, can i go meet her?" LOL. and i'm like, "sure of course, help me wish her happy birthday."
so you see, i'm amused cuz i think we both have a gender crisis. he's like a girl, he asks for my permission when he is going out with another girl, and if i say NO, he won't. and i'm like a guy, i only go as far to tell him i'm going out with another guy, and if he says NO, the more i'll do it. and i think its one of my most endearing qualities to him. :D