i'm depressed again. like one of those times the head and the heart are in perfect conflict with each other.
feel like crying myself to bed... really loathe it when people see me in the state i am in now.
i just keep seein myself more clearly, in need of a lot more than i say or show. but this sick mask i'm wearing, it makes me so fuckin tired.
but i don't want that part of me.

it just hit me so hard.
how much i missed it.